yeah, i pretty much fucked it up.
i think we all had some sort of similar experience where we had that "wakeup" call.
for me, that happened after my year at Fontys.
highschool went smoothly. throughout my years at highschool i never had the intention of being the top of my class, and i always spent my free time working on stuff i liked at home.
whether it was working with small communities, or playing random games, i managed to just remember subjects and barely studied before exams.
back then, i was that one "gifted" guy who just understood stuff, but i never did more than what i needed.
this does not last.
during my year at Fontys i pretty much had the same mindset as i did throughout highschool. "yeah it'll work out"
i was already experienced with coding & had done some projects before i went to college, so i was confident about my abilities.
well yeah, as you can imagine, that didn't go well.
i failed my first year.
i wasn't shocked because i knew it was all on me, and i had hit a huge wall.
it wasn't going to be as simple as it was before, and i understood that if i wanted to get stuff done, i have to get it done properly.
so i took a year off, and started working on myself.
i started working on projects i liked, and i started learning new stuff.
here i am today, currently studying at a college closer in my area, and i'm so proud of what i'm doing.
i want to do more, and i want to learn more, and the depths that i've been in show the contrast of where i am now.
there's a long way to go, and i'll keep going step by step.
